#62.

9 Years later , and i feel like a completely different person from when i used to write in this blog consistently .

Almost a whole decade has passed from when i was a complete spoiled brat who didn't need to work a minute in her life to having life smack me across the fact and show me how hard it is to be on your own in this day and age . 

Looking back to the previous posts and i can't even believe all of the constant get - together's i had with my friends . 'Specially compared to now ... Now I hardly ever go out , mainly because i have to work extra hard and even on days where i'm not even scheduled to work just because i want a decent paycheck to be able to pay my rent , which is a bi - weekly agreement , and also to have money for groceries & to save up for either a car , or for new stuff that i may need . Not to mention also trying to set aside some time to spend with my boyfriend of , starting tomorrow , 6 months . 

After i sold the house i grew up in , in Glendale , I couldn't fathom living anywhere near my hometown , so after i took Bartending Classes in Torrance , I had fallen in love with the whole Beach - Side living area of LA , and decided if I were to ever sell the house and move somewhere new , I'd definitely do my best to try to move to the South Bay area . 
And that's what I did , in March of 2012 . 

It was a lovely start , moving into a room for rent in a pretty spacious house on Greenwood Ave . in Torrance . 
And that literally only lasted me up until November 2012 . There were roommate issues when the chick renting a room next to mine decided to move back with her parents and a new older lady who was the Spawn of Satan , moved in . She was the ABSOLUTE worst .

She even went as far as to locking me out of my room when i had showered one morning , because i didn't let her shower first . I had to call a locksmith and pay (out of my own pocket , mind you .) $300 to change the lock just to get inside my room . She had locked me out when all i had was my dirty pajamas & bathroom toiletries for the shower . i was barely in towels when i found out she locked me out of my room . 
Absolute bitch .

Anyway , after that incident i decided to try my best to find an apartment to rent cuz after that whole ordeal and numerous other incidents with this lady i told myself you may get lonely and want to live with someone but think of the crap you just had to go through with that housemate , do you think being lonely would be worth the risk ??
ABSOLUTELY NOT . 

I had found this HUGE apartment for rent in the outskirts of Torrance and Wilmington in a small section of the city called 'Lomita' in the 'Harbor City' District area . It was right off of the busy af Western Ave . in between Lomita Ave . and PCH . It was the perfect location , seeing as i LOVE the sound of traffic to fall asleep to , and also the SPACIOUS af

1 bedroom 1 bathroom apartment that it was . 

It even had a locked garage to store my car into , so that i wouldn't have to stress about having my car stolen from having to park it on the street . 

but , even when i did have to park my car on the street cuz i couldn't find the garage remote , i parked it on a side street and just sprinted home . i couldn't be asked to handle / deal with the stress of someone breaking into my car or even worse , car - jacking it . 

Throughout the 4 years that i resided at my first apartment , i had acquired the perfect amount of furniture that made the place finally feel & look like a homey - comfort feeling . 

when i first landed the apartment , i first bought a fridge (because my current fridge was a mini - fridge , and would either freeze the food i'd store in it , or wouldn't be cold enough . So , i ended up just using that mini - fridge as a place to store my alcohol when i had company over .) , and also a set of couches for the living room .

I had my small 18 inch telly my aunt had gotten for me when she redecorated my room as a surprise for when i got home from my Europe trip . Which was perfect for my teenaged bedroom , but for that apartment was WAY too tiny . That living room alone was ginormous , a 60 inch telly would even fit in that room .

Throughout the years , i had bought a telly stand for the living room from the same place i had bought the set of couches , and since that lady who sold them to me remembered me , she had let me take home a Floor Lamp for free . And i chose the Floor Lamp that was incredibly unique . It had attached to it , like a little table stand to set drinks or things alike on . It was perfect for the living room , only if it had more outlets ...

After saving up some money from working , i was able to furnish the rest of the apartment with a 55 inch screen telly , 2 bookcases to store all my DVDs in , and a Dining Room Table set which was the last set of furniture i had furnished the apartment with . As for the bedroom , i had bought a white set of chest of drawers and a dresser . A new full - sized bed , a large 60 inch wide desk with the most expensive item I've ever purchased before : a 27 inch iMac Pro Computer . As well as the 40 inch telly i had first bought to replace the 18 inch telly from my teenaged bedroom .

The apartment was finally perfect enough , and then i quit my job at Wendy's which was a mistake , and i didn't Lyft enough to be able to pay rent and had to move out .

But within those 4 years at that apartment , i found myself .

Through all my depressive states , and different group of friends , and also the first time i landed a job since high school and the different jobs i went through , it was a beautiful learning experience to how adulthood was .

I first started to go back to school in that apartment , and was finally able to handle the workload and get A's and B's for my final grades .

Then Wendy's first hired me on my birthday of 2013 , and i worked really hard to keep that job until 2016 .

and i also tried to accomplish working two jobs at once when i worked at Rubio's , and although that was one of the toughest things I've ever had to do , it was a good way to push myself to do better and to show myself i can be able to do it and not just giving up because i was too exhausted .

Managing all those bills was a toughy for me in the end , but i was able to do it all myself . Sure there were a couple of bumps along the way when i had to choose either to feed myself or if i wanted to have wifi and cable . but i was able to handle all of the responsibilities that comes with living on your own and being apart of adulthood.

Not speaking of the 6 months i had moved from Lomita to Ventura and then moving from Ventura into my Mom's living room , i'm finally at a place where i can start fresh in W . Covina , and if i allow myself to continue to do better , i won't have to rent a room for much longer . Sure i miss my social life , but to me , the most important thing right now is to save up to get back to where i was before when i took , living alone in an apartment , for granted .    

Right now , I'm in between jobs . Hoping to score an interview by tomorrow with a nearby Jack , also hoping to have my days back at my current job Wendy's from a suspension i feel was undeserved , especially with the reasoning that went behind it , which happened to be because i used a manager code to get my employee discount for my lunch that apparently 2 other co-workers used before i even did it , yet i got suspended for it .

My boss was also upset that the previous shift i had asked the manager that was in charge , if i could have a free lunch because i didn't have any money to eat until i had cashed my check , and the manager in charge okay'd the free lunch . Then when the Store Manager came in and saw that i had food stuffed in my backpack from the lunch i didn't finish , he thought i was stealing it . 

To be fair , i shouldn't have gotten a lunch at all that next shift cuz i knew he was on my case because he thought i was stealing food . but i was doing a 8.5 hour shift and i was rlly hungry ... still . I should have known better . 

Life is getting better , and will continue to be getting better once i'm able to live on my own again . Until then , i'll be working my ass off trying to stay above water , getting myself out of debt . 

Gonna just analyze some Poems , and do some History 02 studying for the rest of the day until i call Jack . 

Have a good rest of your morning , guys . 

Good Morning , Blogger .