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Yesterday was one of those days i just want to forget about happened. Adriana told the guy i like that i want to go to prom when i told her to tell him that i wanted to know if he'd consider going with me. He said he wasn't going because he's hanging with his friends that night. I completely understood. And when i went to talk to the both of them I went into flirt mode i guess ; my voice got higher and my face turned red and i was giggling a lot. ughhhh.
anyway, adriana told me that he said if he went to prom he'd go with me. and that was very reassuring though. and when we talked it seemed like there could be something there if i let it.

Anyway, during 5th period i started crying because i felt rejected even though i wasn't and it was so annoying because the people who sit next to me who like are talking about boys and stuff the annoying girls, were asking if i was okay and if something was wrong and if i wanted to tell them...and then I was in denial when Kevin and Dyane came over to me. They told me to not cry and i just told them 'I'm not crying...' and then Kevin's like 'Come on, Shelly...There are tears in your eyes' and I told him 'what tears ? I'm not crying' full of shit haha.

and I couldn't handle sixth because i needed to be with my friends, and i feel bad for Mr. Higginbotham but once i tell him what happened i'm sure he'll understand, besides this was the first time i did this. And Adriana and Esme cheered me up some, and whenever i'm with Adriana my mood changes because with her i feel like i could just be myself. and loud and crazy and shit.
I stayed with Adriana in 7th period and did my Biology and stuffems. and then i just came home.
And today i think i'd either walk to school or I'll go to the gym, and take a fucking nap.
tomorrow's half day and open house. and also i'm hanging with my mother after school. Friday's the field trip to the museum of tolerance. Oh god. how depressing.

Anyway, i'm getting ready for school.
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Shit's so complicated lately. my trip is comming up in almost 2 weeks. and the opera's almost here with Placido Domingo ! also my amazing mother of mine, just bought us tix to go see Mr. Andrea Bocelli on June 7th. Fucking best way to start off my summer. I got a tattoo finally. the experience was amazing and fun, i love the guy who did it for me, he was pretty awesome.
the pain of the tattoo is still here, but it's peeling and healing and ughhhh fuck.

This past weekend on Friday after school I went with Adriana to the beach and we went to the Malibu beach for about an hour or two, where we were chasing these ducks and then they started chasing us so we were running away from them screaming aflac. rofl the ride home was beautiful, i love the downtown lights.
Saturday, I went to Gabbz house thinking we were going to stay at her house, but we ended up going to the mall and we went to Petco, and gabby adopted a rat lol it was so random and spurr of the moment. but the guy who helped us was pretty hot. gotta admit. lol, so we hung at the mall a bit more. she bought us ice cream and shit. and then her mom took us home, and i left my cell in her car and when she came to drop it off at my house her mom laid it all down for me, that i was fat and that i need to lose weight, and i was like wtf i already am. and it annoyed me that she wasn't listening so i was crying my fucking face off. ugh
But on Sunday I did nothing. just started my Chpt. 7 flash cards. and stayed home did nothing but watch movies, i love Sundays.

My week is almost already planned out. Today after school i'm going to the gym with caroline. Thursday i'm going to hang out with my mom, get my bag for the trip, and stuff, and then later that night is my last open house for high school. Friday night or Saturday Morning, i'm going to take the train to see Cynthia. so I'm excited about that. but that's it i believe.
But it'll be rad and eventful anyway i have to get ready for school...

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40.

Hello thurr. this week's been hectic. i'm going to miss first today because i stayed up last night a little later than usual. because i was doing my project. I hate when i have french projects because i end up staying up later than usual.

anyway, here i am, sitting in front of my laptop with a cup of coffee and texting my best friend, everything's tight as fuck. Getting the best grades possible in all my classes except for English class but it's all good. The trip is now in 27 days, i can't believe it's so soon. and i haven't even gotten most of my stuff ready, i think on the stuff i'm gonna need i'm gonna have to see my mom the weekend before i hit the LA-X.

So this whole week i've been just kicking it and my appetite has gone away, idk where the fuck it went but it aint with me anymore. ;_; and i miss eating and stuffing my face but my aunt told me something yesterday that made since she said 'maybe you're growing up and you just lost the appetite and will to do all the things you used to.' and it's possible but i don't know.
So, this i think it was monday i went to GCC to apply and look for a date to take my placement test and make an appt. to see my counselor. And tuesday i met with her, and she was a very nice lady, and it was the first time i went to an appt. by myself where i had to do all the talking. it made me feel very grown up but scared me because i'm growing up, no more minority business except for the doctor. lol

The counselor told me i had to be a part time student, and she told me which classes she wanted me to enroll in ; A study skills class, a freshman orientation class, some other class i forgot, and a math and english class.
and i was like shit, that's part time, but i'm sure i can handle it with all the shit that i'm going to be allowed to use, i''m going to need all the help i can get lol.

Any way it's getting a bit late for me to finish up but this is what i did the whole week much like it.
and school's comming up in a few minutes so...

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39.

So it's the weekend again already. And a month from Monday it's going to be a month until my trip to EUROPE. I'm really excited but it's the farthest i'm going to be away from my aunt, and home and my friends. but the history and the tours are going to kill me, 'specially with Adriana. I LOVE history. xD

but yes, I'm going to prom but i'm so shy i can't ask the guy i want to go with so i guess i'll go with Cynthia which i'm happy about also. it's just fucking complicated. :/

i really like this guy, and i won't even be able to tell him i like him because i can barely act like myself around him without blushing and shit.
well I found my prom dress and my shoes. All i need now is the jewelry and the make up. It's the red dress i got for homecomming in the 9th grade. lol

yes, well anyway, i have to leave the house in a half an hour. i'm going to Caroline's house and we're going to chill for the whole day until I go to my mothers. :]

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btw, this is how it looks on me now, but after i lose some pounds it'll look perfect on me.

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I went to the admissions office of GCC on friday after school with Adriana and Evik and it ended up being closed. and me being the idiot i didn't call to see when they were going to be open and when they were going to close that day. So i got a application to do at home so now I can just do it all at home and then just turn it in.

Since the GCC thing failed my whole day, they let me get some lunch at McDonalds and since it was a friday I came right back home and took a long ass nap and i was super cranky up the ass.

Saturday was bomb though. Marie took me out for lunch which was a nice lunch at iHop although it was crowded and noisy. After lunch she had to go to L.A. so i decided with the 10 dollars i had i was going to go get a Caramel Mocchiato and a new pack of reds.
The bus came earlier then expected, and most of the ride to Gabby's i was on the bus alone. but when i got off I walked a block to Gabby's place and we basically played video games all day and ate dinner then got our hair did and make up done. and went to the liquor store to get some necessities, until 10.30 to go back home.

Sunday i basically just stayed in and did nothing, like my usual sundays consist of.
This whole week is going by really slow as it always is.
But this weekend i'm going on an adventure with Mom, and also I got a new phone. Samsung Gravity. I'm going to miss sidekicks, but i'm sure after this contract is over i'm going to go back to sidekicks, or if something cooler comes to T-Mobile then we'll see.
anyway, school time. have to get ready.

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