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Yesterday was one of those days i just want to forget about happened. Adriana told the guy i like that i want to go to prom when i told her to tell him that i wanted to know if he'd consider going with me. He said he wasn't going because he's hanging with his friends that night. I completely understood. And when i went to talk to the both of them I went into flirt mode i guess ; my voice got higher and my face turned red and i was giggling a lot. ughhhh.
anyway, adriana told me that he said if he went to prom he'd go with me. and that was very reassuring though. and when we talked it seemed like there could be something there if i let it.

Anyway, during 5th period i started crying because i felt rejected even though i wasn't and it was so annoying because the people who sit next to me who like are talking about boys and stuff the annoying girls, were asking if i was okay and if something was wrong and if i wanted to tell them...and then I was in denial when Kevin and Dyane came over to me. They told me to not cry and i just told them 'I'm not crying...' and then Kevin's like 'Come on, Shelly...There are tears in your eyes' and I told him 'what tears ? I'm not crying' full of shit haha.

and I couldn't handle sixth because i needed to be with my friends, and i feel bad for Mr. Higginbotham but once i tell him what happened i'm sure he'll understand, besides this was the first time i did this. And Adriana and Esme cheered me up some, and whenever i'm with Adriana my mood changes because with her i feel like i could just be myself. and loud and crazy and shit.
I stayed with Adriana in 7th period and did my Biology and stuffems. and then i just came home.
And today i think i'd either walk to school or I'll go to the gym, and take a fucking nap.
tomorrow's half day and open house. and also i'm hanging with my mother after school. Friday's the field trip to the museum of tolerance. Oh god. how depressing.

Anyway, i'm getting ready for school.
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