20.

So, I'm at Cindi's house at the moment, on my computer. Waiting for Sunrise to spring up, and right after I'm gone. :]
just wanted everyone to know I'm alive, and not dead, knowing I haven't responded in a while. I'm so tired, of men also.

reason I don't date, because all men are assholes. lol idgas if you think you're not. All men in some way are all assholes.

Beastie's Sleeping away, while I'm awake on the computer. GHEY.

Well i'm just about ready to collapse, night.

19.

So, here I am again. Late for school once more. Late meaning skipping first period. I don't know it just seems pointless to go to it. When i make up all the other stuff up anyway. I also haven't went to French class in so long now also. I go to class, i just pick up the test and go to Ms. Kelloggs and do it, and all the classwork we do in French, I come after school to see what we did. and do it then.

I guess I'm just so sick of these routines that I just want them to all be over with. I want to start College and have my own responsibilities and not having to count on someone all the time to do things for me. or have things done for me.

I start work again pretty soon.

and just everythings falling hard on me again, and I can't even stand it.

18.

Ahh, shit.
I forgot to turn in Mr. Higginbothams T.A. Pass.

SIFUHAWOERHi
i'm going to be soo late.

16.

God, school is taking over my life. I have nothing that's mine anymore except for my friends. When my best friend and I hang out, it's prolly the only thing I ever do. Other than that, GymGymGym&&Tutoring all the time. and it's going to go on like this for about 6 to 7 more years. Ridiculous. As long as I get my degree in Teaching, to be a U.S. History teacher. &doing what I love then I'm fine.

The story I have been writing, Senior Dread, has taken a new toll on me. I thought of a new way to end it, and I need to fix the whole story, and it seems like it'll be better than what I had originally planned. And I guess thats what I do when I come home everyday.
I have to get ready for English Class, Reading Hatchet, Do-Nows, SRA's, and wait for class to be over. and Finish that stupid French Test I couldn't figure out yesterday.

New chapter in French...Ew. Means Quiz tomorrow.

Goodbye, Blogger.

15.

Well I haven't been doing anything out of the ordinary. Last year in High school is pretty much like last year, except I have a non-special ed class. Instead of it being Geoscience, it's French. Frenchfrenchfrench. I can't get away. Every night, if I don't write down my homework I have to go to the website and check. And sometimes she makes mistakes on putting what page or what date it's due. I just can't wait till I go to Europe and this class will be half over. more than half I hope.

I'm getting distant with Adrie, but it's just cause I'm not wanting any friends. I suck at keeping them, because I always want alone time. and when I always get alone time I end up feeling miserable and alone and I hate the feeling of being alone. So I don't know, it's complicated.

I'm going to get ready for school, be late as usual, and do my work, and then. Possibly, take a small tiny little nap. If I'm lucky, or work on my lovely flash cards. Byebye, Blogger.

14.

Why hello beautiful. I guess today was my day off. and it was certainly a good day off. I got reassured i can stay at the job if i pick up the pace and learn how to do it fast when and if i want to.

I have Mondays and Tuesdays off. and in the future i'm going to ask if i can work Saturday mornings because i needz ta chill wiff my baby sister.<3
I'm finally over trying to please people, because all i need to do is please myself and i'll be happy. Besides College is comming up in a year, and I'm dead excited to get out of Special Ed and get REAL homework and REAL studies.

While my baby is in her Junior year in High school in Providence, I'm going to be a Freshman in College. It's all going to be fabulous, because I'll be a waitress and have A's in all my classes and have already been to Europe. YES, I'm going to the London and Paris trip. Adriana says she's going to go, but i'm not sure if she will, but if she doesn't, i don't care. I'm just excited to be there. AHH<3

Fernando went to my job the other day and I totally fucked up. i guess i got so nervous i spilled his drink and like blushed and all that shit. and he goes 'haha it's fine' ;__; how embarassing. really.

Well tomorrow I'm going to see Teena, and I'm stoked to just see her. it sure has been a while since i've seen her, and it's just been her and me.
Well I gotta do my french homework before I fall asleep. and study for that French test. Oh jah oh jah. <3

goodnight, Blogger.

13.

I have a job
i love it
i'm never free
except for the weekend
when i'm with my baby sisterr.

I love life.
don't fuck it up for me.
i'm almost out of high school
and thats it.

goodbye. until tomorrow.